I want to cry so bad right now but I won’t because no.
Oh, i am really craving legaspi because he’s so much older. this is so unhealthy but its ok. all these rebounds. heh. he’s so cute, i really don’t know why i am typing this out, but omg, so cute so cute. i love the way he walks and how hyper he is and how i can’t tell if he’s straight or gay. yah, yah, i know he’ll never like me, but sometimes it’s just nice to think of. maybe he’d protect me, i think, when i know that these sorts of things do not happen, maybe he’d be the new “the one” but i dont think so. but then i didn’t think that of henry before either, but omg legaspi, so cute so cute. wah ;( actually, i dont really know why i like him so much, if i think clearly, there’s not much of a reason to like him, so i guess that kind of alleviates things a bit for me. maybe that was why i was writing this all out. hm. i work in mysterious [ stupid ] ways.
I don’t even know what I want anymore. Do I even still want to be with him? He hurts me and we’re not even together. But what if I can’t find anything better? What if this is as good as it gets? I’m crying but my chest is too hollow to cry.
Evanescent sunrise by `AquaSixio